Tuesday, August 31, 2021

A Star's Letter to a Sunflower (April, 2015)

We are a million miles away 

but I see you clearly

Every day you chase the sunlight

I witness how you bloom when you face him

But as you can see

you're not the only one he's shining for

There are abundant reasons

why he rises

And then, there's me

Blocked by his light

Patiently waits till he sets

So you can see me

But then I know you won't even take a lookup

not without him

So I decided to fall

for you

I've heard many wishes on my way down

All the same as mine: Love

I wasn't sure if I was leading to you

or if I'll ever be with you

But deep inside, it felt good to have courage 

and bravely take a risk

And even though I can feel myself slowly fading now

It felt enough


Saturday, August 28, 2021

I'D BE (April, 2017)

If you were in the middle of the ocean
and your boat is slowly breaking into pieces
I'd be that floating wood remain
you can hold on to till you reach the shore

If you were in the middle of a war
and a bomb was thrown in your quarter
I'd  be that 1-minute delay you'll need
to figure out how to get away with it

If you find yourself surrounded by Dementors
sucking your happy childhood
I'd be your Patronus, going out
even before you recite the spell

If everything falls out of control
including yourself
I'd be the parachute
and the wind all at once
to make sure you land safely

I'd be the best friend
the sidekick
the pick-up driver
the class substitute
the parent's excuse
the last coin in your pocket
the last piece of tissue
the shoulder to cry on
the wall to lean on

I'd be anyone you want
and anything you need
until the slow-mo happens
and the perfect song plays
then you'd know
that I was there from the beginning
and it was me all along

Friday, August 27, 2021

When Death Becomes a Gain


    Exactly a month ago, I was in the middle of work while blasting my usual afternoon playlist when I received a devastating message  -  one of my childhood friends died of COVID-19. I found myself speechless for several hours trying to process how he could be gone just like that - no warnings, no goodbyes.

   My friend and I live a few steps away from each other and the thought of going home and not being able to see him around made way for the pain to slowly creep in. I do not know how long I cried that night but all I know is that the next day was much harder. I was trying to remember the last time I saw him, the last time we talked, the last days that I had the chance to reach out but didn't. Sadness blended with regret was emotional torture. I prayed to God to have something to be able to do for him but I know very well that it was too late. When death knocked, it stole away my chances. 

    This recent heartache has reminded me of one of the hard truths of life: tomorrow is never promised to us and neither to the people that we love. Our life on earth is like a morning mist. We appear for a time and then vanish. (James 4:14)

    Days after I received the horrible news, new death cases of the virus have flooded in my timeline. Friends were changing their profile pictures to black and people were sending their condolences in the comments. I could not imagine how it must've been so hard for the families to grieve while being isolated in their homes, not being able to hug and share the pain of losing a loved one together. 

    As for me, it made me reflect for a moment how it would be if God chooses to take away my life tomorrow...or even today. Would the things that I have been doing right now matter after I die?  

"So teach us to number our days
    that we may get a heart of wisdom." Psalm 90:12

    This prayer of Moses is a resounding thought to me each time I am reminded of my own mortality. A heart of wisdom. Oh, how I pray that I would spend each day of my life with wisdom. 

    Being in the early twenties, a huge part of my time and thoughts revolved around building a career, excelling at something, etc. Then the pandemic happened and somehow it overshadowed every other concern in my life that all I could think about is survival. God has definitely shown me how the things that I have been putting my energy and time on can easily be taken away from me. I am, in no way, saying that working hard for a good future is evil and that aiming for a dream is unnecessary. What I am trying to point out is that there is a tendency for me to put my heart and security on things that are superficial and fleeting which is not living wisely at all. 

 Wisdom, as the Bible says, begins when we fear the Lord(Proverbs 1:7).  

    This is a hard pill to swallow but God has not created you and me for ourselves. He has created mankind for His glory - to worship Him and serve Him with joy. If we fear God, we are to abide by His rules, laws, and will.  This Holy God demands obedience and punishes those who would rebel against Him. What we need to understand is that God takes our disobedience seriously and punishes our sins justly. I would be downgrading the truth if I say that God does not send people to hell because He does and He has every right to do so. He made all of us after all. 

    What makes it trembling and painful for us is that none of us could live up to His standards because all of us sin against Him. This is much even terrible news to hear, right? But hear this, God is a holy and just God yet He is also loving and merciful. He showed His mercy by sending Jesus Christ to bear the punishment of ALL OUR SINS. Christ lived a life in perfect obedience to God's law (which no one ever did) yet He died on the cross (the death that you and I deserved) so that we can be forgiven. He satisfied the wrath of the Father against all of humanity's rebellion. And now, those who would believe in Christ's sacrifice on the cross and repent from their sins can enjoy eternity with the Father. 

    To put it simply, there is a greater virus called sin which causes a greater threat to us than physical death and that is the eternal damnation of our souls and being separated from our Creator forever. But the Gospel gives us Hope in which to Christ we can cling for salvation, refuge, and redemption. He will be our righteousness and hideaway.

    Now this truth should not only cause us to be cautious but should also give us hope. It should encourage us to live and grow under the grace of the Lord. Wherever He has placed us and whichever season we are at, we are to glorify His Name by living in obedience to His Word - a lifestyle that strives to reflect the very character of our Savior. 

Christ the power of God and the wisdom of God. 1 Corinthians 1:24

To gain a heart of wisdom is to be united in the Wisdom personified. To be secure in Him in life and death, and to live in His ways in all our days.

     Death may come inevitably but if we are in Christ, our physical death is not a loss anymore but rather a gain - eternal life with Jesus. May this be our prayer daily - to obey God until the day that Christ comes back or until He calls us home. 

Tuesday, August 10, 2021

Acts 24:22-27

I am currently reading the Book of Acts for my devotional and I'm only a few chapters away from finishing it. Praise God. I do not usually post so many details about my study (since I thought it would be so long) but now that I have this space, I might be able to do so from time to time.

I've only got few applications from tonight's text but the context is this after Paul pleaded his case before Felix, the governor, he was kept in custody... again. He was already in prison for two years before this happened. What specifically struck me are the following verses: 

"After some days Felix came with his wife Drusilla, who was Jewish, and he sent for Paul and heard him speak about faith in Christ Jesus. And as he reasoned about righteousness and self-control and the coming judgment, Felix was alarmed and said, “Go away for the present. When I get an opportunity I will summon you.” Acts 24:24–25( ESV)

Felix was probably expecting Paul to give flattering words as Felix had the power over Paul's life. HE WAS THE GOVERNOR. However, the opposite happened and Felix was confronted with the Gospel. Paul preached it clearly and boldly. Felix was alarmed and yet he did nothing. Right after that, he even left Paul in prison for another two years to keep the favor of the Jews. 

Two major reflections:

> When I think about it, if it wasn't for God's grace, I would have responded the same. I would have heard the gospel, be alarmed, and then continue with my life... unchanged. 

You see, the Gospel is offensive. It confronts us of our filthiness, our lack of self-control, our unrighteousness and alarms us with the judgment that is coming. It can either harden our hearts (like Felix) so that we dismiss its truths and continue living in sin or convict us and help us acknowledge our need for a Savior who is Jesus Christ. 

May our response to the Gospel be the latter. May we humble ourselves, repent from our sins, and run to Christ. 

> The second thing is this, Felix, acknowledged Paul's innocence from the Jews' accusations yet he feared losing their favor so he let Paul be imprisoned. He denied him justice. 

Truly, if we want to gain the favor of people and of the world, we would lose sight of God. Felix knew accurately about the Way yet he feared the people more than God. 

At some point in our lives, we would be facing situations where our faith and obedience will be tested. We can't serve two masters. It's either you fear God's wrath or you fear being humiliated by people.  

By His grace, may we be faithful to stand for God's truth no matter the cost.


There you go from tonight's session. Hehe, hope to see you on my next random post. Good night. :) 

[Currently playing: Christ Will Be My Hideaway by Sovereign Grace Music]

Wednesday, August 4, 2021

Nice to Meet You!

Hi, I am Nova from Cebu. Consider this as a warm welcome to my page. Hihi *virtual hug or handshake*

Writing has always been one of the hobbies I got to keep growing up (and even made money out of it) but I never really focused a lot of my time and energy on it. I only treat it as therapy when my mind is all over the place. Somehow, I feel like it helps me get my thoughts organized which helps me function better.

Recently, I found out pages of beautiful learnings I had over the years and I realized it would be such a shame to keep them from the world. So in other words, this blog is dedicated to every note that I have kept in my phone, journal, and in any random sheet. Some of them are from Sunday preachings and Bible studies but I also have notes from people that I got to talk to. Thank God for meaningful conversations.♡

I also needed an outlet to exercise this gift. I believe every skill that the Lord has given to us should be used for His glory. I do not claim to be the best writer out there (gosh haha). In fact, my writing is also one of the insecurities I am trying to overcome *it's a long story of comparisons and stuff* but in these pages, I will strive to exalt my Creator in every way possible. 

Yet not I but may Christ be glorified. 
Thank you for visiting me in my little corner. 

See you around,

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